w.e.e.e.e.e - t.r.i.p

i was in the beach~!! no more photoshop~~~ weeeeeee*

will update more on pulau perhentian~ take care peeps~! :D

p.e.r.h.e.n.t.i.a.n

im off to perhentian tomorrow~~ weeeeeeee* :D

快乐吗？

心胸狭窄从来给不了自己一丝快乐
为何自己所说的谅解，就在那时刻消失呢？

江山易改本性难移
以前种种的心痛，就在那时刻哭了出来。

心痛没办法使到爱人开心
嫉妒他人可看到他的快乐
闷豫没法达成他的完美

我流泪了，又怎样？
他的想法，还是不懂。

日子不管苦或乐也需要过
就让他顺其自然吧。
无论如何，我已爱上了他

让时间把事情慢慢解化。。。


怀念小时候的天真。。。

害怕吗？

女人的痛处，男人懂吗？
男人的痛处， 女人又懂吗？

女人哭哭啼啼的暗示她的心痛，你了解吗？
男人苦苦拉着他的容颜告诉你他的苦衷，你了解吗？

往往纠缠在这不言的状况，值得吗？

难言之时，谁没有呢？
一点点谅解，可会使明天更好。

不管谁对谁错，没人是完美的。
你还是你，他还是他。
明天醒来，他还是你的，你还是他的。

不管如何，我都不怕苦了，你呢？怕了吗？


不要怕，我爱你。

c.o.m.p.e.t.i.t.i.o.n

it has been long since i have time to blog~ weeeeeeee* :D

update update: i have won THE competition, i have completed my IELTS test, i have been accepted in Liverpool Uni and me going to Perhentian on the 3rd of July with me boy fwren~ weeeeeeee*

1. THE prize giving ceremony~ XD
the competition for me still, i find it too good to be true. i have never won anything in my life. for once, i won this over so many talented people. i felt so honoured. really.

that day was my first time seeing my dad giggled in blush. i have never seen my dad so happy before. u should see how he looked at me that day. he was so proud of me as a father. he looked at me in a way that i could never hope for. it was beautifully set. i am proud of myself that i have made it. i really thank the boy friend for staying up with me all this while. without him, i couldnt have made it this far. thank u my dear~ i love u.

people may criticize me in so many ways. however, no matter what they said, it will never change the fact that i have won. i am still who i am. some people have landed me some views, sour views. i dun care about the winning prize, it is true that it feels great to win 10k over, but it is not more that a mere moment of fame. it doesnt worth while to be looked into. on the other hand, the moment of my dad looked at me when i did my speech. THAT's priceless. :)

10k for my dad~!

i've made it~! TvT


the finalists :)


casual shot~ dun really know what is this for~ ><


anyhow, after the interview i appeared in newspaper~ :D thats very new to me~ weee*

the full page archieve~ :)


the presentation board that caused me most of my sleepless night~ :D

2. the final day in british counsel~ :D
at first, i wasnt very fond of joining the class. i have been so caught up with the competition, i felt like putting myself in a pile of shit to have join any class, at a time like that.

apparently, i was wrong. i always have self esteem problems. the thing about joining new class is that, u get to meet new ppl. means, u have a chance to start over again, to be who you really are. this experience really brought me up as a person. :)

i always have trouble making new friends. but after this class, it changed. i can actually be ME in this bunch of friendly ppl. we dont judge each other over races. we are there for the same goal. to learn english. just like any other classmates, we share the same goal. i really embrace that feeling of sharing the same moto. it keeps us moving on the same path. everyone may have a different pace, but in the end, we are moving towards the same trophy.

we have graduated~! :D and thats aisyah~ n the boy fren~ :)

johanna too~! :D

that's max~! our britain lecturer~ it has been great to go for the classes :D

that's all for the new stuffs that happened in my life, for now~ there's more to come~ cant wait for perhentian~! :D weeeeeeeeee* xoxo my peers~!

h.o.l.i.d.a.y

i have not been doing much lately i must say. i have been having trouble focusing in the competition. plus, i have took up IELTS classes recently. it is pretty interesting. it is more like a class to get to know more people from different countries than learning the language itself. u should see the way we have our pronunciation section. it is soooooooo cute~ :D breaking words into parts and had it pronounce. i enjoyed most of the part.

the thing about the competition is that, i have not much motivation to do what i am suppose to do. i am aware of that, and kind of disappointing in a way. i want to achieve more, but my will is lesser than i thought. however, yesterday, ooi informed the finalists that the press conference will be on 17th of june, which is my father's birthday. don't u think, it'll be great if i win this as a father's day / bday present? it gave me a goal to achieve, to have my father proud. a boast to do more and win the prize. haha~ wish me luck! :D

dont worry be happy :D

s.i.e.n

waiting in the library for the briefing~ i am horribly bored.

i realised... there's a distance within ourselves that u know u cant reach, but here, u are trying so hard to impress. they cant see that u're struggling. a talk would normally solve thousands mishap. so, lets sits in a circle and have a heart to heart talk. i am always here... will u be? insecurity, do have their own way of making an entrance back. snuck thru the painful wound, felt so invisible all of sudden when u'r living ur life the way u know u want. i hate feeling insecure.

i have most of u here close to my heart. that is what kept me stronger each day. knowing, u'll back me up whenever i fall. acknowledged that fact wrap my heart with ur silent regards. thank u. i cant tell u how much i miss the days, the days where we are able to see each other the moment we woke up. i miss that.

i miss u my dears. :)

love the song :D